Seeds of Change

Taking time to reflect on the past 4 years of my life recently. What motivated me to take this leap of faith into the unknown? Is that same motivation still present to guide me forward? My life is bitter sweet in so many ways. I have cleared out clutter, made space for new friends, adventures, experiences and knowledge. But it has been the most challenging 4 years of my life! Would I change my decision for an entire life make over if I could go back in time? Hell no .... well maybe if you catch me on a bad day. But no, what I have gained in the last few years is more than I ever hoped for. Painful yes, but in adversity we grow in strength. A Permaculture teacher once gave me an example of this that is forever etched in my mind. He described a tree .... if a collar is placed on this tree half way up the trunk and anchored to the ground the resulting growth will look like this.... the bottom portion of the trunk will cease to grow and weaken. The top portion of the tree that is able to sway in the wind continues to grow.  The tree literally needs the challenge of the wind to enable it's growth in size and strength.  For me this collar represented my comfort zone. I could have continued on the path i was on .... working my 9 to 5 waiting for the weekend so I could dull my boredom and dis-ease with shopping, alcohol or whatever other self destructive habit was convenient.  I'm sure my life choices look crazy to some .... to me its the best thing I have ever done for myself. It has enabled me to come in contact with soulful people rich with passion and desire for positive change.  Personally I am tired of the story that we have been telling ourselves for the last 400 years. I'm waking up to a new story that is re-writing itself for me as you read this. I'm not entirely sure what the future has in store for me, however I know it is in a constant spiral upwards and I am hanging on for the ride.